if only

if only
i have the time to bring back
old memories from long ago
from places i know

a place of yearning
my soul has been searching
for life brings me memories
i can only dream i possess

looking back has always been spent
with utmost glee and fret
for memories i do not agree
with everything that has happened to me

childhood hopes and dreams
frustrations from families and friends
all but make up the life i have
spent wondering if only i have